It’s over.  I’ve loved every minute of it.  I’m heartbroken.  I’ve spent over a year working on this and before I could even give permission, someone else decided, that’s it, dream over – final curtain call.

It was everything I had dared hope it would be and everything I feared.  I’ve been criticised by people and then praised to the highest 5 star level, sometimes on the same performance.  I’ve struggled to pick myself up and then thought,  f*ck it – I am doing this, you are not.

Tonight was a performance I’m proud to be my curtain call.  We enjoyed it, the audience loved it and it was just slick.  I can’t believe how much we’ve progressed these last 3 weeks.

We had a lovely post-show dinner/party with lots of champagne and wine.  I will miss my No Strings family so much – we’ve just grown closer and shared stories that must never be aired – ever – again – ever! We have gone through an experience together that most people never do.  No one can take that from us.

I don’t know what else to say except, I don’t know what comes next.  I hope this is not it.  I have felt so alive these past 3 weeks, as if I knew where I fit in life. This is the life I want to live.