I’m scared.  Very scared.  Like can’t keep anything down scared.  This has been so much of a dream that I never thought the day would actually come.  While we were in rehearsals, it was safe.  This day wasn’t supposed to ever come around and yet, here it is.

This play means the world to me but I feel so exposed.  If it sucks, then it’s down to me – I wrote it.  The feeling of having nowhere to hide makes me want to curl up in the corner of a dark room and only come out in September.  Most of all though, I don’t want to let down George, Kirstin and Martin.  They have all taken a leap of faith with me and I so want it to be good for them.

Fear of failure, fear of public humiliation, fear of sucking, fear of reviews, fear of people’s sympathy…Just fear, total fear.